i can't f*cking sleep

god i hate that. it's 2:30 AM and i can't fall asleep. it's either one of two things - it's that time of the month and i can't get comfortable enough in my bed or i'm just thinking too damn much. i think it's a little of both right now. *sigh*

i decided to put my gameboy down and pick up my knitting needles again. i've been doing little projects from stitch n' bitch, but not finding anything really satisfying at the moment. i just started the big bad baby blanket, which is coming out great... i just wish i had a baby to give it to. oh well. i also started crocheting leis today. it was so funny to find a yarn store when i was in maui... i had to satisfy my curiosity and make one. they're fun, actually, but a total waste of yarn. we'll see if i really get into them. i just want to finish my poncho and a goddamned sweater already.

ooh. a yawn. maybe that means something.

so father's day has come and gone... and big surprise i got into a fight with my mom. i'm kind of upset about this fight, because this is the second fight we've gotten into because she swears she told me details about something when i know she didn't. so she accuses me of not listening to her. i have no problem being deemed the bad child, but at least have a solid reason for calling me that. and since my brother is the big mama's boy, i'm ultimately the cause of it all. i can't believe i've become so accustomed to taking the blame that i don't even fight anymore and just accept it. it's disgusting, actually. *sigh* sorry, pop. maybe next year will be better for us.